after 7 months at Stanford, I haven't found much excitement, until recently.

 

Maybe I did not want it so badly in the beginning. that's why.

 

I don't find the excitment and I don't see the pleasure. this stanford education is like a map, and I don't know where it's leading to. that's why I feel lost.

 

I don't feel excited because I still haven't found what truly excites me. I remember the excitement of reaching milestones and goals in my life, and I starve for the next ones. I got lost because I hold a map, but there is no final destination on it. Only with an end, will the map actually makes sense.

 

I now believe that you can never be overprepared for the next challenge. So I started to see things and do things differently.

 

There are a million ways to make excuses to myself, and a million ways to slack off. that is just not me. The challenge is over the next corner, and although I don't see it, I feel it looming already. that keeps me excited, and I feel excited over the small steps I march toward it.

 

I now feel excited again, about school, about Hi All and about another venture, and about an idea I have been brewing. I found new goals, and working to realize them makes people excited. yeah. I can't wait to see how they come out. every step toward it makes me thrilled.

 

also I realize I am just a boring guy and I can live with that. yeah, boring or not, by definition, depends on what gets you excited. I have different things that excite me, and my pleasure is different from other, I believe. and one of the most important lessons I have learned, is to go ahead, rather than please others and prove yourself.

 

because, the majority are majority.